Long Nights Alone-Intro

[Verse 1]
I used to have feelings, but I lost those
I been traveling down a dark road, my heart’s cold
I got a hardened soul
It happened a long time ago, the lines expose
How I’m primed for growth, but stuck in place like a mindless ghost
Sipping Julio in the jacuzzi with hoes
My life story should be by Mario Puzo
I had my eyes on the prize but it was fool’s gold
I had to light the pilot on a new stove, the 40’s two-tone
It holds between 10 and 17, but I don’t need em all, same reason I didn’t get the beam
As a child sleeping I used to kick and scream
In dead silencе had to tell myself that it was just a dream
I guеss I never woke up, nothing is what it seems
My reality’s changing down to the subtle things
Got my eyes on the future no matter what it brings
In plenty times I see a sign and don’t know what it means
It’s only right, a gambler can’t control the dice
At least I’m sure before I check out, I’ll know the total price
I’m sorry if we didn’t coincide
Just know the weight on my shoulders was boulder sized
Payin now for all the times that I chose my pride
I light another one and close my eyes
It’s been a long battle, but I chose the fight
Just some deep thoughts on this lonely night