BALLET

[Verse 1: Julien Sword]
I'm ahead of myself, fall apart when I'm awake
How I make it to the city? Tryna’ make it through the day
Wish my nephew didn't miss me, he don't know why I'm away
Gotta fix my fucking time, wrist skate dancing like ballet
Suicidal with the brakes, almost died, I played it safe
Losing sleep on my mistakes, almost cried like twice today
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Aye, back up in it
I fucked my mind up for a winter just to keep my distance
I do not fuck with all y'all like you think, good at pretending
My mind is broke, I'm reading notes but they don't ever listen
I swear they never listen
Z Z Z, my stick on E
My life online, my hype 6 deep
It's frightening when they silence me
In my zone I’m on my timing, need my inner peace
New shawty, she just not feeling the energy

[Verse 2: Henry Draw]
My own mind is my motherfuckin’ enemy
It’s not creating happiness for me, yo’ fuck the chemistry
My parents tell me “find some help, we’ll put you into therapy”
I’m not telling these strangers how I feel like open sesame
My midlife crisis is gonna dawn at 26
Final moments at a keyboard, slavin’ way at 20 mixes
Homing missile, destroyin’ these bridges
I slow clap while growin’ inches, and losin’ diction
I hate like more than half of my blood, I want my family away
And the other bit I love is constantly in disarray
Like, it’s been a couple years and uncle still ain’t have a kidney
His children got some jobs, I haven't seen ‘em ‘cause we busy
And Grandma gonna need some surgery, what a surprise
See Austin during Christmas, I can’t look him in his eyes
The cycle runs like every year, I’m so sick of reprise
I start to weep, and then I sleep, I don’t wanna arise
I don’t wanna arise