Revisited

[Verse 1]
Used to write rhymes on the staircase of an abandoned building at night
Let my passion build and it filled my ego
Is this talent real?
I could now stand tall head high with this pride instilled
Tryna' still push mic skills further
Flame ignited a decade ago and still burning
Willing to spit to anybody who wanted to hear
Any open mics or battles I was wandering there

Wonderful years; despite my then-circumstances
Sleep on this piss-soaken mattress with no advancement that meant
No peripheral I see through a tube
When my class graduated I would sleep 'til the moon was out
Didn't get to throw my cap in the air
That wasn't fair to my moms but she wasn't actually there
No one was; to hear me scream at the top of my lungs
Struggling to stay afloat in deep water I sunk

[Chorus]
Been there, done that;
Had it with my fucked past
A dark period from the mind revisited
Don't know why it bothers when the night casts
I lay awake thinking why is it inhibiting

[Verse 2]
Travel back 10 years lowest point of my life
Knife, pointed upright, at the neck poking it like
'what if I went through with it'
Death, serious, threw it then onto the floor viewing it
I was so moody then
Movie shit
All the melodrama was trauma
One point even caused me to rip all of my rhymes up
Sittin' in this dark corner with my heart pourin'
Not knowing where lines on pennin' are goin'
Kids dissin' on my race, the condition I was raised
--it made me a prisoner of my face
Fuck my stepdad
I done risen out that page, dreams of ripping out his heart envisioned in my sleep
What a nut case, and for the upchuck
Just keeps tasting bitter --then poof
One page appears out of thin air
Keep clowning on my dispair
Now still better than reliving the past, I been there

[Chorus]
Been there, done that;
Had it with my fucked past
A dark period from the mind revisited
Don't know why it bothers when the night casts
I lay awake thinking why is it inhibiting
The mind is a vicious cycle

[Epilogue}
Try to let go of something permanently
It's bound to creep back into your thoughts
Enough of this