Yellow Shoeshine

I'm waking up with sick on my shoe trying to get myself through the haze
If only I could reach for the milk, find a packet of pills through the maze

Oh heaven knows I give, I give it all
I'm never gonna stop until I've given it all
And now I've got the army of shame trying to wiggle their way through my brain

I don't care
What do you say
Keep me in a cage and I'll fly away
I still didn't die
All this time
And now I've got my jacket and my yellow shoeshine
You're calling me a honey but you're pushing me away
You tell me I'm your baby but you're treating me this way
I don't care
I don't care
I don't care

I'm double-time stuck in the mud as I'm watching your blood coming up
Your silence means a million words, worse than using my purse shut me up
Oh heaven knows you take, take it all
You're never gonna stop until you've taken me all
I can see the green in your eyes, doesn't fit with my size anymore

I don't care
What do you say
Keep me in a cage and I'll fly away
I still didn't die
All this time
And now I've got my jacket and my yellow shoeshine
You're calling me a honey but you're pushing me away
You tell me I'm your baby but you're treating me this way
I don't care
I don't care
I don't care

I recognise when everyone new is made my (?) part
Promise (?) that you'll (?)
Sick on my shoe and now I've broken a star
How can I convey you pulling up from the dark

I'm waking up with sick on my shoe trying to get myself through the haze
If only I could reach for the milk, find a packet of pills through the maze