More Than Ever

Lately I've been smoking more than ever
Drinking more than ever
Never showing that I'm broken
Over-thinking more than ever

I'm just hoping it gets better
But I'm ready if it doesn’t
Being sober for an hour
2 years what I wasn’t

All bad good for nothing, I've been stuck in my past
I wanna die soon… plus I know it's coming fast
DUI number 3 drunk hoping I crash
Made this music from my heart always hoping it last

So you could learn from it, maybe help you to grow
Cause I've been through the kind of shit that no one ever should know
Was a man at 15 taught to never let it show
Had to get it on my own, so myself is who I owe

You could tell by the flow I put years in this shit
How I'm supposed to talk to God if he ain't hearing this shit
Plus the weed and Hennessy it's near when I mix
I said that I'll be gone a week I'm disappearing for 6

Through the worst baby, I been going through it
Told her that she shouldn’t love me but she gonna do it
Roll my weed poppin pills we be slowly moving
Then we going back and forth showing no improvement

So I'm focused on this music got no time for the buzz kill
If this bottle don’t help me then these drugs will
All these problems with myself keep me up still
I remember happiness and the times that it was real

Plus I'm feeling like I'm better on my own
Some things never change all I know is alone
I can’t make it out the house, can’t pick up my phone
I just let the smoke dance while I get in my zone

I know that lately you don’t see me these days
It ain't forever somehow I'ma get through it
All these years I've been fighting got me feeling these ways
But when my time comes I know ill be living through it