Tearing Me Apart

[Verse]
I need to hate you
Cause if I don't, if I don't
I just know I'm gonna love you
All I want, all I want is forget I ever had you
All I need, all I need is to learn to live without you
When I'm awake, it's all I can take
I'm burning like it's a third degree
And when I'm asleep, it's you in my dreams
And I can't shake what we used to be
Feelings have changed and we've rearranged
But it's you in my memory
Trying it all but I've hit a wall
Now I'm stuck in this history

[Chorus]
I know that this should end
But I don't know where to start
I'd love to let it go
But I think it's gone too far
Wish I could fake it, say it wasn't breaking my heart
How can I pull myself together when you're tearing me apart?

[Verse]
Oh I know I shouldn't want you
That what we had wasn't good and I'm better off without you
But I'm still dreaming of the night we spent
Drinking champagne in the hotel room
When you told me that you love me too
I would have stayed with you forever, oh
But nothing's the same now
When I hear your name, it's like a bullet to the chest
Reminds me of us and how I wasn't enough
I gave you my all, but you put it to rest
Now when we speak, is it making you weak
Is it tearing you up inside
Is my voice in your head, all the words that I said
Are they keeping you up at night?

[Chorus]
I know that this should end
But I don't know where to start
I'd love to let it go
But I think it's gone too far
Wish I could fake it, say it wasn't breaking my heart
How can I pull myself together when you're tearing me apart?

[Outro]
When you're tearing me apart (no)
Baby (If I don't, if I don't, I just know I'm gonna)
You're tearing me apart (If I don't, if I don't, I just know I'm gonna)
Tearing me apart

I need to hate you