Its Deep

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[Chorus]
Somewhere out there, the waters deep
I wait for the waves to crash over me
There ain't no hope inside my mind
And all of the pain remains inside

[Verse 1]
I feel like I should live life with my eyes closed
Block my ears up, hand me them earbuds (go blind)
Shut my pie hole, I don't wanna see my people die slow
I don't wanna hear my family crying
I don't wanna talk to the 5-0
I don't wanna talk about the Shannons, the Jasmines, the Maya's
I'm similar to Michael, mind of a child (mind like a minefield)
Adulthood turned me to a psycho
Time's taking its right toll
Heart cold like an ice pole
Feel like I'm on a tightrope with a blindfold
I've seen madness happening everywhere that I go
Bro went jail, killed himself in a cell
The pain transferred now his sibling's suicidal
He killed himself a year later, it's a suicycle, mad

[Chorus]
Somewhere out there, the waters deep
I wait for the waves to crash over me
There ain't no hope inside my mind
And all of the pain remains inside

Somewhere out there, the waters deep
I wait for the waves to crash over me
There ain't no hope inside my mind
And all of the pain remains inside

[Verse 2]
Bro told me we all go to the grave from the cradle
In between it's all pleasure, if it ain't it's just painful
We spoke on all levels, all this grief'll shape you
He said if life's a game, I don't wanna play ball
I don't wanna stay here, when I'm unstable
And I'm uncertain, whether I'm able
Why ain't I learning? When I'm so hateful
Nothing's gone great, I'm pretending I'm grateful
Yes I'm ungrateful
All this pressure on my plate, all the plates on my table
Praying to the angels, give me some healing
Head up to the sky crying, near enough screaming
Don't like what I'm seeing, hearing or feeling
But something in my heart says I'm here for a reason
There's a man named trauma, he's waiting round the corner
You ain't outta the storm 'till you're drowning in water

[Chorus]
Somewhere out there, the waters deep
I wait for the waves to crash over me
There ain't no hope inside my mind
And all of the pain remains inside

Somewhere out there, the waters deep
I wait for the waves to crash over me
There ain't no hope inside my mind
And all of the pain I hold inside