Sinking

Uneasy, paranoid, sleepy
No one would have thought
Because I play it easy peasy
But when I'm back-collapsed
Home alone, I feel freaky
No matter what I do
I know nothing will ever please me
Appease me
All around demand
For the best man
I'm like, "I can do
I'm a yes man,"
Knowing full well
I'm an over-stressed mess, man
Hand blessed
As I de-stress in excess, man

Here's the thing about it all
I deflect, thеn I can ball
I'm a wreck, but I stand tall
Blame it on the alcohol
But it's hard to tеll
With my back against the wall
I keep fighting, I'm a brawl
Teeter totter, baby fall

Give me something to believe in
To believe in
Gotta kill this sinking feeling
Sinking feeling

Picture perfect pose
Smile for the camera, please
I'm showing up and showing out
Like cheese
It's all an act
To a certain degree
I play it light as a breeze
It's my ABC
Been drinking too much
Overthinking too much
Always smoking too much
I be joking too much
And I, I don't know if
I'm coping or what
I'm just hoping for what
What I think
Stop the feeling
Stop the sink
Got me kneeling
To the brink
Only dealing when
I drink
See the pattern
But no link
There it is!
Then I blink

Shadowbox in the rink
Bet it's time to see the shrink

Give me something to believe in
To believe in
Gotta kill this sinking feeling
Sinking feeling
Give me something to believe in
To believe in
Gotta kill this sinking feeling
Sinking feeling

Hey Mom, no, I'm fine. I just need to come home for a little bit
I just need to clear my head
See you at home