Julia

Julia called me up late last night
I hadn't heard from her in ages
She said that she hated living her life
And that she hopes that I'll make it

Julia never had it all together
She was keeping everything to herself
Fell in love with boys she thought were forever
But eventually they placed her on a shelf

Julia was scared of getting older
She didn't have a plan or any goals
Every winter felt a little colder
And one day she decided just to fold

She never told her mother that she felt like this
She never talked to her friends or to a therapist
Thought it'd be easier to hide or run from the pain
But it never went away

Julia smoked weed alone in parking lots
She said it helped her thoughts stop wondering off
And for a moment she felt free, but it was all temporary
And she stopped wishing for a heartbeat

She never told her mother that she felt like this
She never talked to her friends or to a therapist
Thought it'd be easier to hide or run from the pain
But it never went away

Julia had the biggest heart I knew
She always told you things you'd wanna hear
She never missed a birthday or a show of mine
And she didn't deserve this life