Suicide

HOOK:I know you're tired of loving, of loving with nobody to love, nobody, nobody
So just grab somebody, no leaving this party, with nobody to love
Nobody, nobody/

I got my fam in this shit/
Bitches that never knew me came to show love to the kid/
My momma stessin out but she built strong she the shit/
I guess ill never know if ill be rich successful and shit/
And all my friends shook as fuck wishin they could save me
My nigga i was so fucked up you could never understand me/
I was tired of myself, tired of fucking up my own life/
Used to look at myself in the mirror and point out everything i didn't like/
I dont know why my father here man he ain't give a fuck/
When that child suppourt got dropped he started ballin like fuck/
Is it better cus im dead now and i can't get no head/
Another black man gone but this time it ain't cus of the feds/
Its cus of my own doing and my own self judgement/
God was takin too long so i grabbed them pills and said fuck it/
I been trapped for years and it feels so good to get off/
I killed myself and im rappin bout my funeral dog/

(HOOK)

Here lies me by me, dont lay nobody beside me/
Im too alone and to dead to have more death around me/
The clouds speak, my mind leaks, my souls no dramactic/
My heart gone my brain dead its been getting eating by maggots/
And a girl in this world wishin that they loved me better/
And a cousin in my state regretting not respecting me better/
And you know that ill go, where ever life take yo ass
But understand the me you know is dead like a summer math class/
This shit ain't live to me, my body don lied to me, im tryna reach/
A higher standard of myself but i just fall to peices im breaking me/
The devil over taking me and god tyrna bring me back
And everytime he hit me with a blessing i dont know how to act/
It get worse knowing your own mistakes will kill you eventually/
Im through with it so through with it but i ain't done giving up on shit/
Mentally dead im killing me because im done dealing with this mess/
Lifes hell but i got heaven after death//

(HOOK)