Jamila Says (True Chicago Outro)

[Verse 1]
They told me I would never accomplish anything
Not even suicide so I, sit and contemplate on how to stay alive
In a home where death is a reoccurring factor
Every night I hear the cock of the gat outside my bedroom window
I lay on the floor, and think of songs that reminds me how far I can go
See, I am 20 years old and I come from the city where the people are as cold as the weather
Where the "men" only see how fat my ass is
And the women all forget they're queens
I refuse to let that be me
They told me that I would one day house a "baby daddy"
Who would be the one behind the bullets and crack
And the one giving the sacrifice to that
They told me that because of where I live I would only be able to
Bare kids and sit & hate on rich people and what they accomplished
They told me that my children will be born when I have not yet left my childhood
And a parking lot will be made in a place where my house once stood
They told me I would be nothing
But yet I thrive and strive to be the role model my sister will have no problem looking to be like
The woman that any man would love to call wife
But these trials and tribulations make it harder for me not to convert back to the
Feeling of self hatred that I had so many years back
Each day is like the last, and I feel this one we live today will turn into tomorrow
And although I live my life to be different and make yesterday jealous
I find the days intertwined so that I can't make them envious
So I, I, I Sit
I, I, I, I, Write
I, I, I, I Sit
I, I, I, I Write
I, I, I, I Sit
I Think
So, I sit, I write, I think, I remember, I reminisce
And I try to live knowing life is what I make of it
Because in a few weeks, this pain will be a strong contributor to what I accomplish
Just watch me, society, and the kids these days