Life I’m Living [PLUGGED]

I remember sitting on my own
Nobody wanna know me if I ain't got my charm on
Daughter, she don't wanna see her daddy go
But I gotta go out the door
Gotta grind harder
I don't really wanna be running up on the road
Because I know I'm risking my freedom and karma
Nobody can be a dad on their own
Can't be a father when you're locked up in parva

I don't really wanna be looking up at the sky
Asking why my lifes getting so harder
I don't want sympathy I just want you to know that the pain
That I go throughs Pearl Harbour
Don't ask me why because I don't know why
But I used to look right up to my brother
Till I found out he's a murderer
And now he's got to spend his life in a gutter
Looking up to the wrong people in life
That'll lead you down the wrong path
You're going to end up being who you're looking up to
So make sure you're not looking at the wrong man
Lord God knows I'd be out here preaching the good new
Even if I had one fan
I've got the Father, the Son and the Holy Ghost
So you know I'm not a one man gang
That's why I, that's why I, that's why I
I give thanks and praise to the Father
I'm gonna keep doing that before I do anything else in my life
Because he's my armour
I know that he's real yeah I know that he is
Because he came into my life and took all of my drama
People've got more faith in karma than they have the Lord
I bet you didn't know he's karma
Thinking back deeply into my past I'm lucky that
I never went down Glen Parva
When I'd pull a certain face at my mum she'd say stop
Because you look just like your father
Mummy still loves me the same way from when
I was born and stepped into her arms
Mummy still spending the last bit of money
Breaking herself making sure we're all calm
Dad I don't see you as much as I'd like to
I know you're only down the road in your car
20 years old time ain't going slow
I just know I love you with all of my heart
Know that I'm thinking about you every single day
Every day we've been apart
Gonna keep on screaming I love you too until
I've got no more beat in my heart
Until the day that you see me depart
I remember climbing them trees in the park
I remember my dad leaning out of his window
Telling me not to go too far
Remember my grandad telling me not to be with bad mind people
Because they're too fast
Remember play fighting with my cousin
Because he said he wasn't gonna hit me too hard
Remember my grandma Dora telling me that I'm a good boy
But she didn't really know
I remember leaving out my front door saying that I've
Gone school but I didn't really go
All these memories and all this pain
Just keeps on swirling around in my head
In life there's always a mountain ahead
But you gotta climb up or you'll drown in the mess

You see this life I'm living
This ain't no computer game
You say you can feel my pain but you know you
Don't feel the same
You see this life I'm living
This ain't no computer game
You say you can feel my pain but you know you
Don't feel the same

A baby mother that wants to argue all the time
That's all I got on my line
And a bag of mandem that only wanna work with me when I've got something for them sly guys
Where'd you wanna go what'd you really wanna do
Nah that was never you that was your mind eye, I
Know what's real and I know what's not
When you can't talk to me don't say your my guy
Not rolling around on the streets no more
Going straight to the top little jigger bye bye
From a youngster I'd never been scared of the dark
But I feel comfy when I've got a nightlight
I give away everything that I've got all the time
So you can't call me a tight guy
Persons love means more to me than a bit of money
So I'm gonna keep giving out mine
Feel for the rich and I feel for the poor and
I feel for everybody out there struggling
Stand up tall we're all children of God
Open up your mouth don't let nobody muzzle it
How do you think that less fortunate guy feels
In the corner nobody wanna cuddle him
I'm gonna go around town this Christmas
And I'm gonna give them all turkey with stuffing in

I remember sitting on my own
Nobody wanna know me if I ain't got my charm on
Daughter, she don't wanna see your daddy go
But I gotta go out the door
Gotta grind harder
I don't really wanna be running up on the road
Because I know I'm risking my freedom and karma
Nobody can be a dad on their own
Can't be a father when you're locked up in parva

You see this life I'm living
This ain't no computer game
You say you can feel my pain
But you know you don't feel the same
You see this life I'm living
This ain't no computer game
You say you can feel my pain
But you know you don't feel the same