QLilyLunaPotter331Q’s Genius Diaries: December, Entry 1

Saturday, December 6th, 2014
December, Entry 1Here is what I have determined to be the truth of "getting people" from my experience today:

I can perceive enough to be able to "get" almost anyone in the world. It's always easy for me to imagine what others are going through. It's also always easy for me to voluntarily try to do that.

I can perceive, all right, and that's definitely a good thing because I do want to be unselfish and altruistic and empathetic and such. And sympathetic as well as empathetic - on Friday when ________ wrote to me about her troubles, I could tell right away that she felt I wouldn't understoand, nobody would. So I wrote back saying I can't say I've been through what she was going through, but I'll be there for her and be a true friend when she feels she has none. That was sympathy, not empathy, because I always feel like nobody will "get" me.

And both of us are right. We're both tireless idealists who are different from others, thanks to our past experiences and exeptional insight that not a lot of people have. We are both very perceptive and understanding and communicative, able to discern a lot of anybody's personality by looking at the way they sing in choir. Both understanding, but hard to understand. "Getting" all types of people in the world, selflessly forgetting that nobody understands us in our hurry to empathize others.

But that is why the times when there is nobody to help is the worst for us. We can't distract ourselves from the harsh truth then. That's when it settles on us that nobody will truly :get" us while we're fighting tirelessly to "get" them. Don't we deserve better, though? Shouldn't we deserve to be empathized, too?

Well, that's the "price of beauty" in being an idealist. You have to fucus on others and foret about your own desires in order to make the world the place you envision it as. You have to "get" others, no matter what the personal cost, even if you receive nothing in return for your care, dedication, and selflessness.

There are times when we idealists break down and cry and let the truth sink in that nobody will ever "get" us. There are times when time itself is a tunnel of darkness in which we see no end. There are times when idealism turns us this self-destructive.

But we have to tell ourselves to go on. Our valuse are just that important. We have to forget ourselves and just keep focusing on others because our values call for that. We remember once again that life is worth living. It is our duty to make this world a better place, and it's worth being misunderstood in almost everything in life to accomplish what we were meant to accomplish. We know that the people will just keep on letting us down by misinterpreting our intentions negatively, but we also know that we have to stand up and keep fighting, on and on, keep living. Nothing is going to chage who we are.

It is hard enough being an idealist, but add that to mine and ________'s situations that differ us from the rest even more than idealism...

Today, I saw the Sports Genius 2014 Best &Worst page. Best football player was CR7 - the penny drops. I added my own rant in my own personal tate there because...Well, go ahead and read it! I won't write it again.

Then, I saw a spark of hope and clicked open "Football (Soccer) - FC Barcelona" under "Best Teams", only to be heartbroken by a "lol, just lol" from Zk123 (!!!) and a few other disagreeing tates. I added a comment to Zk's saying:

Do you realize how that sounded, ZK? I can't believe this is coming from you.     Those two quotes from me and Zk above were exact words.

So I broke down like the average idealist today and also went over the average idealist's "nobody will ever get me" self-lecture and, yet again, GOT OVER IT for the sake of others. Again.

The pressure has really been getting to me lately, evidently and unambiguously. Dad broke my heart by suggesting that I give up on what he calls my "absolutely optional project", but since I'm an idealist and he's not, I obviously couldn't explain to him and expect him to understand what Leo Messi means to me. Everybody who knows me personally thinks it's just a celeb craze (which is very STUPID of them to think because I am actually VERY anti-stereotypical). But it's not, as the blue link above that you probably did not click should tell you if you have even bothered to consider the work I spent linking it so you could click it. Sigh. Okay, I forgive you. Just be more considerate next time, please.

Wandawaisu is very wise. No kidding. He's just so good at applying past experiences. I remember him telling me "Sports Genius is not a very good environment for Messi fans." And oh, you were much righter than I feared, Wanda.

Idealistically and realistically,
Logically and emotionally,
Extrospectingly and introspectingly,
Jess, Forever A Mess