The Wind Rises

It's been a long couple years since I started making something I think nobody would ever wanna hear
'Cause believing in myself was just another of my many many fears
Got a lot to work on lately 'cause I hate who I've been seeing in the mirror
Not sure how I made it here, but I would brush it off as if it's not severed
She said I really wanna live
But at least I understand what living really is
If that's a bet, then I would guess it's probably close to this
'Cause what we had was beautiful, and it's gone like the wind
It was a blеssing and a curse, put my head into my work
And I did it more than usual for all that it was worth
Look, I couldn't takе it back, it's time I could've spent with her
But I know it's not what you ever deserved
And why I was reassured, you pull me out from the dirt
And every time that I dream, I try to fly with the birds
I'm always thinking for me, and wishing there was a cure
'Cause when you finally leave that's when it's all gonna hurt
It's feel like it's getting worse whenever I think of her
And I can't turn up these thoughts whenever they do occur
They shoved me into a box like why would they pick me first
I'm overthinking a lot, there water soaked in my shirt
But I know that there's a purpose, I don't really have a clue, even if it isn't you
After all I'm still searching, do I have a lot to lose, yeah, even if I do
I wonder if it's all worth it, every time I speak to other people, I get nervous
'Cause they only see that part of me that's on the surface, and whenever they listen, do they even see a person, when they hear me in verses
I don't know how to word it, and don't know how it ends
Everything gets to worse the more I listen to them
Never said I was perfect, but I like to pretend
And get rid of all of the burdens to see my hero again
Feeling like it's deja vu, you were something straight out a movie
You had seen a side that you only could if you knew me
For you, I'd take a risk, you're the definition of beauty
And couldn't be more thankful the wind was bringing you to me