Searching

[Verse 1]
I'm searching this Earth and
I'm not finding anything
It's pretty lame
I don't want the fame
That's when all the gold diggers came
But who the fuck's to blame?
Relationships are real, not a damn game
I got a story to tell, about a girl who's real
And I fucked up the deal
It was a huge regret
And she's one I'll never forget
I, constantly upset, her
Even when we weren't together
But all I wanted to do was help her
As if I was her full time shelter
From danger, but I didn't do it
And I know I could've
And I wish I really would've
Cause now, I've been shaken
Back in to reality, and now I have to pay the fee
Cause she's out of my life
I wanted her to be my future wife
But it's like I put a knife through her
I accidentally hurt her
By my words, and my actions
But I fucked up back then
And it's sad when
I think about it

[Verse 2]
Don't loose what you don't wanna
Cause I loved this girl, and I miss her 100
Percent of the time
She deserves to be treated like an angel
And anything less than that, should strike danger
If I could, I'd go back and restart from when I was a stranger
To her, before I caused her hurt
And treat her as my first priority
But now all she does is just ignore me
But I'm not blind, I can see
Why she doesn't talk to me
Anymore, I wish I could've stopped it before
It happened, but instead I was just sitting back relaxing
Not paying attention
When later on in life it'd make me feel like I was sitting in detention
And it's all hard to even mention
It's like I've been sentenced to prison
But what I'm tryna say, is I miss her
If I had the chance, I'd walk up, kiss her
Tell her I missed her, and treat her like the real winner
She is, and she'd deserve it
If I could buy the moon
I'd reserve it
And give it to her