Shadowboxing

[Intro: Radamiz]
Still gutta baby
Yea, one, one

[Verse 1: Radamiz]
Long time coming, I'm home
Long time humming this song, used to be suicidal
I saw my mothers face and watched her skin turn into Bibles
I saw my brother lose his heart and that's the beat i write to
Saw myself in mirrors and I'm lookin’ nothing like you
I had to look you in your eyes and still I couldn't find you
I had to reach out to a God that I could never lie to
My boy don't follow on IG but I'm his biggest idol
Brooklyn bred scholar of the Dalai Lama
Cash Ruled Everything Around Me except good karma
Forget the charts, truth my marketing plan
Every song feels like I'm one-on-one talking with fans, yeah
Might die today, I guess this really now or never huh
It took forever but now we'll be here forever huh
Don't let the Devil lend himself to your endeavors huh
I'll be a GOAT but I hope I was a better son

[Chorus: Radamiz & History]
Yeah momma was right
It's gon’ take a bunch of years but it's gon’ look like a night Shadowboxing baby
Shadowbox for my life
It took a bunch of years but it's gon’ look like a night
Once again, shadowboxing

[Scratches: DJ Cutbird]
Myrtle Ave to West Houston
I'm from to Stuy, God all my niggas crazy

[Verse 2: Radamiz]
Back when Richie burned cigars in his arm, blooded
It's been some years, if you alive, let's link and speak or something Last I heard you got locked up for ten
That was like ten years ago, I hope that cycle would end
And someone else just told me that they heard you was dead Since your mom moved out of Bushwick, ain't no way to connect
You used to laugh about stabbing kids up, made it a trend
In special ed for anger management, fuck
I saw a friend, and as I write this
I feel the apparitions swarming ‘round my body
Like Malachai or Bert all in my project lobby
While Chop doing a three to six
I'm worried about making hits, instead of puttin’ something in his commissary
I learned forgiveness the key
Spit some, salt to my wounds, spit with blood on my teeth
Like I had drugs in my jeans, I ducked the one, two, one, two
Until I admitted that this a dream that's gon' come true

[Scratches: DJ Cutbird]
Radamiz just cocked the Glock with the silencer
Mogul Club rules for the next twelve calendars
We gon' be legends for this
It's the Moguls

[Verse 3: Radamiz]
Lately been accepting my mortality
Nobody ever told you that your parents gon’ get older too
So lately I been thinking about, when ima get my gravity
When ima stop the hoeing 'round, when ima start my family
Heavy weight since a couple pounds baby
Hear the "you" all in my nouns, picked my face from out the ground baby
I been down since going half on packs of Now & Laters
Those who hated in school graduated to procrastinators
Survivors guilt before
Completely surviving, got some debt that I can't ignore
I ain't preaching to the choir and I'm not a God
Ya'll put in work for me to get me here so I stay on my job

[Chorus: Radamiz]
Yeah momma was right
It's gon’ take a bunch of years but it's gon’ look like a night Shadowboxing baby
Shadowbox for my life
It took a bunch of years but it's gon’ look like a night
Shadowboxing

[Outro: Radamiz]
It's one of those vibes
Shadowboxing, shadowboxing
Shadowboxing baby, shadowboxing