5 Letters

Yeah, 5 letters, h-a-p-p-y
Found a person who would never wanna see me die
It was jaahiliyyah (yeah)
I was just that gassed yute, I never really checked my niyyah
She was different and I liked it
Took out my supply kit
Smile & a buttoned shirt I just wanted to wife it
But I had to try harder
Jokes, laughter
Eventually we started getting Vybz like Gaza
I was living in a dream
Picture perfect scenes
Of a frame of little kids and our faces in between
She was a beautiful soul with such eyes I’ve never seen
You ever heard the saying you work better in a team
Cos I can tell you that it’s true
This feeling felt new
She would come and change the mood
Every time it felt blue
She was a way better highlight than the ones I found in Kiko (facts)
I was sick, and this girl was my placebo
At the time, things were more than fine
I’m tryna secure the bag, feel like I'm running out of time
Cuz she’s beautiful (yeah), and every other guy’s got an eye on her
And she would crease every time they would try on her
That’s when I felt it was a 2 way thing
I would see her everyday, after 2 days in
And it would really break me if I ever saw her very teary
I don’t wanna be the problem I was moving wary
So I would concentrate every time you type
Was never the best was just a guy who tried
And when we tried she kept hitting me with news
Expecting me to leave cos she thinks I’m like them yutes
Who wanna use and abuse
I just told her that I’m here
Just tell me everything at once you know I’ll lend an ear
I understood maybe she thought I’d be judgemental
I had to let her know her values sentimental
You’re a clean hearted queen, the Lord can’t ban you
So never let a waste man determine your value
She was like a mother, child-bearing individual
But more like an investment cos the loves so residual
But things got tense like the tones that I’m speaking in
Went separate ways with unjustified reasoning
It never comes from one, maybe her circle were feeding in
Together we had sauce now we’re missing basic seasoning
How? How did it come to this?
I was alive now I need deep comforting
I held her in my heart, not in my hand
Lost a bro too man I used to be the man
Got me thinking why do things never go to plan
Took some time away I’ll be better when I land
I said, I’ll be better, I’ll be better when I land
Took some time away I’ll be better when I land
And Lord I know it’s only You when I’m hurting
Every single time I get close it stops working
Please don’t even look me in my eyes the pain shows
So I gotta make a situation bless me 10 folds
Man it ain’t about the cheque
Deeper meanings just something you wouldn’t get
So broke, collecting pennies that’s something I won’t forget
And my sleep ain't the same bro, heavy is the chest
Cuz a wise man said modern slavery is debt
Sometimes I cry, I’m joking, I just water my eyes
Cuz deep down I’m really thinking when they die, Imma die
And I'm searching for a breakthrough
Everyday I try, everyday I try, tryna make it in this life
At times I’m happy but my mental state is poor
Now tell me what’s gon happen when that thought leads to thought
Then that thought leads to a thought
And that thought leads to a thought
Now I made a situation, I’m the judge of cloud court
Staring at the ceiling, tryna find the meaning
I barely go to sleep but when I go to sleep I’m dreaming
Drop more poetry, listeners are fiending
Little do they know their little hero needs healing
Praying while he’s kneeling, shaytan third wheeling
We haven’t lost touch, we’ve just all lost feeling
Bros on the G wing, isn’t so appealing
He’s telling me Al7amdulilah, while he’s concealing
And these past few years, I’ve seen fluctuation in peers
Volume's the equation, now my circle is a sphere
I’m on that 3D-ish 3 g’s shall suffice
If they’re stingy dividing pies
You best be watching who’s near
Remember I was lonely you wouldn’t lend me an ear
I felt it in them-organs now they all calling me Piers
Seen invasions in my home from governmental arrears
Now I’m lyrically evolving, you want a share of my cheers
You took a loss, you're fired now you gotta pay the price
I took my eyes off the rats cos I was busy watching Mice
I feel like Lenny in disguise
Cos to me they’re Curley's wives
In them full rouged lips tryna fill above their thighs
That’s dead to me ...
Before you Twitter neeks send for me
I promise that your better than the person you pretend to be
You did him dirty when you found out he’s a good brudda
Now your in trouble cos you settled for that hood brudda
But it’s all good when you’re messaging writing a para
You just needed fixing, he came with the spanner
He gets abusive your deluded ignoring the matter
Til there’s 2 arms to your head like Mo Farah
Now tell me, is that love that you’re feeling
Stuck now your healing, heads in the ceiling huh?
Is that love that you’re feeling
Stuck now your healing, heads in the ceiling...
And you’re about to hear another chapter
A chapter you’d probably just skip by
And now I know you’re tired of this guy
Preaching but I promise you it’s different this time
Because our hearts have set sail and now it’s clear that it’s time for departure
So I wanna give my happiness away to you and die as a martyr
Have a javelin rip right through my chest
A bullet strike right in my head
And if anything happens just know that I’m willing to help you, your mother sister brother and father
I’m also here if things ever get mad and the little ones need looking after, but that’s if you need me
And even though I don’t have power
I still pray, everyday
And I ask Allah to shower his blessing amongst you and your family and ease your affairs because deep down it’s hard to look past a beautiful soul who really cares
Now just like Isa, I want you to listen close and pay attention to the first letters of the next few lines
Join those letters up and you’ll know the type of person that I want in my life
I want a, Motherly, Adorable, Righteous, Individual, Admiring, Myself
And I know how to achieve iman
But that’s not what I need to keep me in the best of health
I’ll be there when life is a roller coaster with a crazy dip like stealth
And I’ll be there, if I ever make it and you and your family need me in terms of wealth but sometimes in life, the soul is designed to need a break
But sometimes this break, could really break someone’s heart and leave them thinking in the dark
With cloudy thoughts of things that happened in the past
So I wish you the best
Because a heart so pure filled with care is a lot more than just a inner chest
And my iman...
My iman has been through more dippings than South London
And lately I’ve just been on that, soul searching journey trying to find happiness in abundance but the crazy thing is
I know what I need to do in order for me to get that
I need to, stop my sins, increase in worship
But in reality it’s just, setback after setback and now my mind is jet black, I just can’t think straight
And I’ve never been brought up to swear, so now it’s just like... for flips sake I never had a best mate... that’s just another pi double s take
I’m a king, I had a queen
We ended up at checkmate
My life’s got no tekkers & it’s left me with a chequered... vision
Why does pain multiply when there’s division
It's crazy how the dead souls are living
My mind is in prison, my heart needs submission
I’m just stuck in disposition
Seeing black, it’s dark, and the white is just my white flag waving
I’m drowning
Quick. I need to find air man, this ship ain’t sailing
I’m failing
My blood pressure's high and my iman is so low
I’m with all of these guys but not a single soul to phone
And they still have the nerve to ask me why I’m so cold
Ayo shout out all the homeless up in Tottenham Court Road
It’s mad! Everything I had just slipped out of my palms
And sometimes we might need that person in our arms
To just remind us about life and why we’re really here
But, now they’re not here it’s like happiness ain’t near
And it’s crazy how I stay up stupid times in the night
Waiting for a sign to show me that it might just happen
But I end up being saddened ... at the fact that I’m no one
And sometimes I have nothing to give so it breaks me to know that I can no longer hold on
My hands have got rope burn and my options are so vast
But the feeling ain’t the same cuz I’m so used to hearing your laugh
It echoes in my head
Only God knows the amount of tears that were shed
Rest in peace it’s the end, but the love is never dead (x2)