Mirror, Mirror

(Verse 1)
Lookin’ at this mirror pinned up on the wall
Thinkin’ “how many times they wanna watch me fall?”
How many times have I lost it all?
Flipped out at somethin’ that was no one’s fault
And I face my fears, my fear factor faced
But when I write about it, it just gets erased
I went against my peers because they do it different
It was weird and stupid, wish I did it different
I get looked at funny cause I got a vision
Well, fuck you too, I make my own decisions
You think you sick because you sippin’ syrup
Well I’ve seen more shit than you could even think of
I hate my reflection cause he stares and taunts me
Pokes fun at memories that will forever haunt me
I gotta persevere that’s what my mama taught me
But my past creeps up and it calls for me
You don’t know struggle till you been in a position
When you lost in a tunnel blackin’ out and your vision is failing
You keep begging for a win, just one watching your opportunity sailing away
Every day is like this and the pain I’m fightin’ will just keeping residing
In my soul, in my heart
It’s what eats away at me after dark
My reflection laughs because he played a part
Yeah, I guess I played a part
I see the hand I was dealt, time to shuffle cards
When I open up, you seen I’m torn apart
Guess that’s why I’m scared to commit to things
Cause I know I’ll just be, hurt again
My reflection makes me feel certain ways
I’m only there for a moment then I’m whisked away
“Look at you weak bitch
Tryna find happiness in women
Marijuana smoke, excessive drinkin’ every weekend
Lookin’ like a fuckin’ mess and still expecting success, what you fuckin’ think this is?”
How can I make decisions when depression threatens me when I try?
Shit should I keep on livin’? My reflection asking why
Why, why, why won’t you fuckin’ die you been standin’ in the mirror taunting me since I was five!
When my parents split
He takes me there again
He says you shoulda tried harder Arian
It wasn’t fair on them
With the weight on you’d think there’s a man on my shoulder
But it’s the man in the mirror that is taking over
It’s the man in the mirror asking’
“Why you sober?”
Fuckin’ pass the green and light the bowl up and drink some more and just drown in sorrow
Then I gotta wake up and go to work tomorrow
And regret the bottle
And flunk the following week, defeat, that’s me
People wanna know why I feel certain ways and I tell ‘em take a seat cause we could be here all day
I feel better for a second then I go and crossfade
And my thoughts cascade like a spiral staircase
‘Til I wake the next day and see the mess that I’ve made
Happens every single day and I wish there was another way

(Pre-Verse)
(Reflection)
I wish there was another way (How many times they gon’ watch me fall?)
Happens every single day (Thoughts cascade)

(Verse 2)
My thoughts cascade like a spiral staircase
’Til I wake the next day and see the mess that I’ve made
And the mess that I’ve made has affected my brain
And it’s used as a tool for my reflection to say
I’m a faggot, a loser I’m glad that she bruised ya
A dweeb and an addict deserved to be used and abused like your liver
You think you a winner
Really you’re a sinner
I hope that the drink and the pills and the weed
And her tongue and her neck and the dirt taste so bitter
Don’t try walk away, come back to the mirror
Yeah, fuck you!
I was doing fine on my own
Then you came in my life to try and right all my wrongs
Now I write all my wrongs
But my wrongs weren’t wrongs
Yet I fucking dwell on them and the product are these songs
Everybody sing along to my pain (Hahaha)
I could laugh all day
Cause I’m happy y’all
Can’t you see my smilin’ face?
All this joy and glee, swear to fuck it ain’t fake
Got some anger issues, criticism can’t take
If you got an issue, then your neck I might break
Ain’t me, it’s my reflection what you want me to say?
And we can’t part ways cause he been there on my darkest days
He controls the vision and dictates my feelings
My body mind and spirit is now blind from spirits
And just tryna write the right lines to make the crowd feel it
My reflection tells me to rewrite the lyrics

(Outro)
Nah, fuck this, I’m gonna shatter the mirror
Write the most riveting lyrics to ever be spit
This record is for those who said I would never be shit
Take a look at me now
Bitch