Curtains

[VERSE 1: CJ Flemings]
I gotta close up the curtains
I feel like I’m a horrible person will I get it one day ?
I don’t know for certain
I used to look up to people in hopes for brotherly love, discoveries of myself just so I can learn to pick up
And answer questions that I always questioned
Somebody help find myself before I loose connection
My last relationship was way too possessive I been meeting people with different intentions
I avoid attention
Thinking back to all the times we were bickering
All cause of my ignorance
I did not consider it
Lost like are you kidding me
Where is this world bringing me
These emotions are all killing me
If nobody wants to believe
I’ll keep releasing cause I ain’t got time for a degree
And listening imma still be here until it’s completed
And slam that door right behind me into freedom
Get this holy water to wash away all the demons
In my opinion we gotta be doing this for people
Things weren’t clicking but I never saw it as reasons for quitting
That idea in my head is forbidden
I been sticking to my circle as if it was rehearsal or something
Distancing myself so I know you won’t hurt me or nothing
It’s hard to stay away from all these moments I’m finally chosen I swear you just caught me at lowest
You just caught me at lowest
I guess my curtain is staying open