Escape Plan

[Verse]
A lot of my exes look the same
I kept makin' the same mistakes
I used to sit down waitin' for things to happen, lookin' for change
But things never changed, because I never changed
I was in the smallest room in my Mum's house lookin' for space
I'd just stare into space
I think I need to escape
The feelin' that I'm gonna get stuck here wouldn't go away
I had a lot of dark energy around me that I couldn't explain
But I didn't want to be saved
I woke up up late
I didn't know myself, only knew my name
They seem to think that they know my heart
Just because you all know my face
I had no foresight, I had no faith
Had no focus, I had no way
To get out all of these things that I was thinkin'
I was strugglin' to find my way
Endin' my texts with just "cool" and "safe"
But I never felt cool or safe
Questioned all the calls I made
My purpose needs to get reclaimed
I just want some peace in my head
Piece of me started feeling strange
Felt like nobody else has felt like this
I became a person I hate
So I'm lyin' there awake
Gettin' money and I'm pissin' it away
Some days that I wish I wouldn't wake
What's it gonna take?
Feels like I'm livin' on the edge
Got thoughts that I know I shouldn't say
It's happenin' again
Sittin' there and feelin' so alone
In realities it never was the case
I'm diggin' my own grave
Really I'm just troublin' myself
Been battlin' with my own brain
And I think that I died at least one or two times
Old versions of me that I don't recognize
I watched day turn to night
I know I'm the cause of my own demise
I don't take my own advice
Watch things get worse so it's no surprise
I sat and I smiled and I meant to cry
I need to make it out alive
Things weren't goin' right, I wrote
I set a few goals, let go of my ego
Work for the ting, there wasn't a cheat code
Me against the world, I'm givin' out free smoke
Oh, I started seein' the results
Different type of brother, I started to evolve
New energy, new me
I started again like I'm gettin' a reload
Things are gonna be what they will be
I finally got back to the real me
I had so much baggage on my back
But I dropped them bags like I spent a few G
Devil in my head, I couldn't let him kill me
Madness in my head so I wouldn't feel free
I'm rich in spirit and soul, so I'm never gonna let myself ever feel cheap
Again