closure (intro)

[Intro]
Nexxx in the flesh bitches
Holy shit he's back (He's back?)
Fuckin' look at him, he's back (What the fuck?)
I don't know, he seems like kind of a fuckin' dipshit
When will you try fentanyl?
Tell us some shit

[Verse]
I feel like I’ll never do good no matter how hard I try
Even if I get down on my knees and cry up to the sky
Beggin’ for answers, but no one’s even gonna glance
Nobody wants to give this fuckin’ faggot a chance
To prove myself, but what the fuck’s it matter if I do?
Because soon enough, the cycle will repeat, and I’ll be back to bein’ blue
Yes, blue, but not the color of the sky
In fact, fuck all colors, I’m always feelin’ black and white
Because the color’s been drained from me, and everybody sees it
When they see me draggin’ my feet ‘cross the floor, and hear it squeakin’
I appreciate the love, and I appreciate the support
But if I gotta keep goin’ like this, I’ll be dead by 24
Many more years of this bullshit sounds terrible
The thought of anymore fuckin’ suffering is unbearable
And if it were true it’s always darkest ‘fore the sunrise
Then I would’ve seen that shit come up after my son died
Which must mean there’s a lot more fuckin’ bullshit that’s in store for me
So if I do not make it past 21, do not mourn for me
I’m tired of feelin’ like nothin’ I do’s ever enough
Even when I’m doin’ great, it don’t mean I’m not doin’ rough
In a perpetual state of self hatred and suicidal ideation
Every time I make a mistake, I cannot take it
If I do somethin’ right, I do not get a “good job”
If I make a mistake, I get fuckin’ told off
So what the fuck’s the point of anything I do?
Why the fuck don’t I just go off and tell everyone get screwed?
Because I gotta keep it goin’, yeah I gotta keep it up
‘Cause if I give up one more time, I know that that’s where I’ll be stuck
And I don’t want this shit no more, I gotta keep lookin’ for answers
‘Fore these motherfuckin’ demons spread through my blood like a cancer
I can feel ‘em takin’ over, ain’t an option to be sober
So step right through this door with me, so we can find some closure

[Outro]
One-one-one-three-seven