[Intro]
I remember them days..heh..I was just living, going with the flow like they all said
Now I gotta really live..this is just the start
Wishing I was still a kid.. but now I gotta play a part..
[Verse]
I had the worst dreams ever
Went from living like a star
To it’ll get better
I used to sleep in a car
Mom texting me like "I don’t know where you are"
I wanted to move away, life just got too hard
I was living by the crooks
Them days had my head shook
Hoping they’d get booked
But instead they got cooked
Understand, that these some dark times in my hood
Couldn’t stand the hard times, but I made what I took
Now I’m laying by some books, chapter after chapter
Working on my story, here on earth and hereafter’s
Shit so cold, it should be in a movie with no actors
Stories becoming fables, like some of these pastors
Believe what you see, but not how you hear it
This life is scary, but they taught me not to fear it
Pick your bags up, and get it how you living
Still live in rags, but I know a dub is near me
Couldn’t get away from tough times in my city
Pointed out the real, and pointed out the Silly
It’s funny how the wealthy looking down on the Pity
Nigga This ain’t a straight road, it supposed to be Hilly
Went from being humble, To feeling like a joke
Been so rich minded, I forgot I’m really broke
Feeling every feeling in them days being alone
Then I started rapping, rhyming everything I wrote
It’s a childhood story that I can’t back away from
In the 5th grade I thought I found my day ones
Ones locked up, and two ran away from
Three of them in the sky, the crying made my face numb
I had everything in memory on speed dial
It was like watching Michael die off 'The Green Mile'
I pray every day that I don’t become the next file
Not even my fam' knew what I was going through
This is your chance to feel the vibe that comes to you
You only think about yourself and what you don’t do
You talk a lot of talk, but no action out the fool
I never stayed in the crib, I was always on the move
Living at granny house, every summer with no pool
Made no friends, or no money, didn’t know what to do
So I stuck inside the house until it burned through the roof
Back in the 'ville, made my way in the hood
Living that life like a normal nigga would
Did some stupid things, making bad out of good
Had no regrets, we did what we could
Met them on the field, then some more on the court
Finally proved myself, I was challenged to be more
Now I’m working harder, to avoid being a chore
All them injuries Yeah it struck me at the core
This is only the beginning and it felt like I was dying
Thought about it all before my mind start to riot
Hoping I make it out, I hate to see my momma crying
I tried to get out the drought but I wasn’t really trying
I know you wanna see me make it, and I wanna see you proud of me
You gon witness every positive outcome out of me
Keep it real with my day ones who were down with me
In the next life, don’t say I wasn’t challenging
The downfall of lineal was the uprise of RAYN
This to all my people who’s been through the rain
Stay true to yourself, and stay in your lane
Like I said two years ago, "no mercy, all pain"
THROWBACK. was written by Rayn.
THROWBACK. was produced by Kenneth English.
Rayn released THROWBACK. on Wed Oct 31 2018.