Kid at heart

[Verse]
I don't pick my phone up, I just watch the rain, leave me alone
I'm all by myself, I'm gettin’ fucked up, I ain’t goin’ home
I'm okay, don't worry about me, I’m never sober, I’m always blown
I feel like I love myself when my head spins, I'm in control
That's how I learn how to function
Say what you want but I’m winnin’ in life
I mean, just look at the way that I run shit
I put in the work and I earned all my stripes
I got blue hunnids and holes in abundance
I get too lit when I jump on the mic
So many people be makin’ assumptions
‘Bout who I am, they be makin’ up lies
I am a kid at heart, kid at heart, since day one I've had it hard
Since day one I've had it hard, but all my struggles made me hard
DRB, I’m a fallen star, been spittin’ heat ’til I fall apart
I be rippin’ beats, every song is art, the real me is behind these bars
I never wanna be famous
I'm only tryna be happy, make money and run
Nobody knows where my pain is
I almost ended myself with a blade and a gun
You can find me where the rain is
I'm always stuck in the dark and avoidin' the sun
My mind’s in a million places
How can I focus on love when I’m always on drugs?
No one really grows up, they just settle down and take on a role
They think that I’m crazy cuz I never do what I am told
They just can’t believe that I’m still me, that I won’t sell my soul
Fuck ‘em all, I’m different, I’ma write my story on my own
I don't wonder who I’ll be, I don't wonder what I'll see
The future isn't real in this moment, that is but a dream
Now is all that counts and you’re missin’ out if you disagree
Who cares what life’s about, we’ll never find out, that’s the coolest thing
Enough with all that preaching, I'm just thinkin’ out loud
Who would've thought my inner thoughts would end up drawin’ a crowd?
I take these uppers to regenerate when I’m feelin’ down
Yeah, I don’t breathe, I hyperventilate, I smoke by the pound
And how the fuck could you hate me? How the fuck could you praise me?
I’m only human just like you but won’t let nothin’ enslave me
I won't let nothin’ persuade me, forever doin’ what I do
And all that means is when I die, I close my eyes in truth
DempseyRollBoy