I’m Not Getting Excited

[Verse 1]
I'm not getting excited
'Cause the thrill isn't mine to invite in
Just the chill when I learn that it's finally my turn
I have finally earned my place in the urn
And I take a fall
But I keep my hands soft
I keep my body limp and I move with the wind
I'll go where it bends and let go of the expectation

[Verse 2]
I'm not getting excited
'Cause the light on my phone's got me hiding
When it flashes at night, it's the bringer of signs
I can see through my eyelids, I know that it's time
And I hold it all
But I keep my hands soft
All the answering, asking, my thoughts are a rat king
There's no point untangling the thought from the action
I'm awake

[Chorus]
What is it like, the other side
Where all my vital signs aren't fading away?
Violent dreams keep me awake
I wear the same face in the morning
A warning

[Instrumental Bridge]

[Verse 3]
I'm not getting excited
'Cause my fight and my flight are divided
And so I don't enthuse, keep my grip on joy loose
And I wait for the news with my feet in my shoes
And I lose it all
With one foot out the door
When I smile, I lie with my eye to the side
So I greet with goodbye, I greet with goodbye
Yeah, goodbye

[Chorus]
But what is it like, the other side
Where all my vital signs aren't fading away?
Violent dreams keep me awake
I wear the same face in the morning
A warning
A warning