Inn My Head

[Verse 1]
Life is what you make it
My shit been a maze that
I can't see a way out
I been stackin' face-down of canvases I painted
I just spent rain day on shit I can't afford but that's the price that I pay for
The memories I'm makin', I've been goin' places
I've been shakin' hands for a chance to really make it
This life is so abrasive, swear I almost gave in
All this shit I'm layin' is only the foundation
I've been goin' crazy, just tryna find a way
I was in the basement, tryna turn the page
I was goin' through a phase where nobody seen my face
I was chasing after paper, I been all in for the wages
With everything to gain, and nothing left to lose
I been breakin' rulеs, I been makin' moves
With everything to provе, now it's going how I see it
Through my lens but it's dark in my head
I can't seem to get away from it

[Chorus]
I went out of my way
I'm tryna feel the high again
I'm lost somewhere in my head
I've been out here all on my own
Holdin' tight to the pledge
Out somewhere near the edge
Of wishin', we never met
I'm scared of bein' without you
Afraid no one ever know me
I'm out near the edge
And I can't get inside of my head yet

[Verse 2]
I like who I'm becomin', it's all I ever wanted
Never like me when you're sober
Only like you when I'm lonely
Got me lookin' in the mirror for the self-diagnosis
Feel like they villainize me 'fore they ever get to know me
Wanna tell me that you need me but your actions didn't show it
Knowin' how you play the angles
And I'm seein' through your motives
But a weight down on my shoulder
Found a way to hold it, I can't keep my focus
Barely keep composure, hard when I've been copin' with
All the pressure that I'm fed, make it hard to hold my head
Make it hard to get to sleep like I'm slippin' from the edge
Strugglin' to get a breath, write the wrongs out with the lead
Life is not a guarantee, niggas dyin' by the clip
Self-prescribed or dealing meds
Not a way out to flee from the scene
I've just been tryna get a grip onto somethin' out of reach
Life is speedin' to peak
That's how I realize that I'm not the man I wanna be
I've been runnin' from myself, we all afraid to die alone
I'm scared that's all I'll ever be, I've been scrollin' down the feed
Afraid I'll never get to see the type of liberation that we really need to set us all free

[Chorus]
I went out of my way
I'm tryna feel the high again
I'm lost somewhere in my head
I've been out here all on my own
Holdin' tight to the pledge
Out somewhere near the edge
Of wishin', we never met
I'm scared of bein' without you
Afraid no one ever know me
I'm out near the edge
And I can't get inside of my head yet