Indecisive

Man I've been tired and the days are turning bleak
So I’ll write another song cause it's what I need to breathe
I've been sniffing all these blues I don’t wanna feel a thing
And I'm sitting in my room wondering when the phone will ring
I keep leaning off the deep end
We're just swimming for no reason
It's not easy chasing meanings
Cause these girls won't stop their seeking

So I sit indecisive in this place
And this bullshit wants my money I'm just hiding in the bank
She kept screaming in my ear but I kept quiet through the hate
Now I look into these walls and I just stare until I'm blank
I'm leaving all my demons their secrets are my weakness
Revealing what they’re stealing
I say that they’re not that real then

Ya all my friends seem to come and they go
And I'm been searching for a place but every home I’d rather ghost
Is it worth it to replace when all our words feel well rehearsed?
We're imperfect and afraid but it's the only thing that works
I'm trying not to let go
It’s hard in every way
You push me till I can't grow
Now I just can't escape

So I sit indecisive in this place
And this bullshit wants my money I'm just hiding in the bank
She kept screaming in my ear but I kept quiet through the hate
Now I look into these walls and I just stare until I'm blank
I'm leaving all my demons their secrets are my weakness
Revealing what they're stealing
I say that they're not that real then