March 31st

It's March 31st, like 1:24 in the mornin'
And um, I just turned thirty-four years old
You know, thank God
And uh, I just had some thoughts I had to get off my soul
While the, while the world sleep, you know

Dear God, I'm prayin', you hear me?
I'm sure that you hearin' so many voices
The choice is of who to answer first
So many people are hurt, it seem like it's gettin' worse
Is it a curse or a punishment?
Wonderin' and while I think to myself, searchin' for answers
But tryin' not to question my health
It's kinda hard, you see, 'cause coughings lead to coffins as well
Could tell your house is a prison and how your life is a hill
But Heaven knows my God ain't likely to fail
So many tears through the years
Could swim through miles at a time
My arms are tired, but they told me fear is all in my mind
But this shit is real to me, so real to me, so, so real to me
The distance growin' from people near to me
Close, but I'm needin' some closure
Kinda feel like it's over
Keep hope that it isn't
I just keep gettin' older
Wish I'd grow me some wings
Time flyin', I'm tryin'
My best to stay decided, but yesterday gone
And tomorrow isn't here yet
So all I got is today
So much to say, but words get in the way
Eventually, memories fade because it's fate, but
Hug your mom and dad as tight as you can
Make sure your words as tight as ground when you stand
As the hourglass sinks from the sand
I thank my father 'cause he raised me one hell of a man
I tell my mother that I love her more than air that I breathe
I tell my brothers that I'm here, I got whatever you need
And tell my lady that you got my heart forever, I'll never take it back
One day, we'll have that kid whose skin the perfect shade of Black
When the stars align, it's all design 'cause it's all divine
Mmm, on God's time, not mine