‌acting like it is but it isn’t

[Verse]
Haven't slept, haven't rest
Haven't ate, yeah, uh, all this stress
Was it worth, yeah, all this mess?
Gettin' high just to try and think a little less
I hate to say it, yeah, but yes
With the demons, I'm my best
Just always waiting for the next, yeah
Memories coming in and out focus
Guess the drugs ain't that potent
That Fent fucked my tolerance up, spoiled it
Can't even, no, can't enjoy shit
Too many charges, no employment
So many excuses, can't own it
That H, I shouldn't have smoked it
Can't give up, even if I'm hopeless
Even if I'm hopeless, you wouldn't notice

[Chorus]
Pain on my brain all the time, yeah, yeah
Just fantasizing how I would die, yeah, yeah
See the sickness in my, all through my eyes, yeah, yeah
Asking if I'm surprised to be alive, yeah, yeah
I guess, but it's alright, pain always here, that's just life
Smoke in front my sight, wandering out through the night
Pain on my brain like all the time, fantasizing how I would die
See the sickness in my eyes, asking if I'm surprised to be alive
I guess, yeah, but it's alright

[Outro]
Yeah, it's alright
I guess, I guess, but it's alright
It's alright
Pain always here, that's just life
It's alright
Smoke in front my sight, it's alright