Who Knows

So what'd you think?
Let's go again

Take me back/

Annakay Crossing days with Bryce/
Young and dumb doing shit wrong tryna live right/
Wonder if we'll link once we cross the finish line/
One of the few I hope to see in afterlife/
Even then relational insecurities were center stage/
Never did I say goodbye just asked not to be replaced/
Eight already with a different world frame/
Glass cracked already had my world break/
Nowadays I find there's only time for the mission/
Impossible to stay in hunt and keep us linking/
Treat relations like Abraham and his children/
Missed Theo's wedding shit I'm still regretting/
Remember a time hoped to be in it/
But go back wouldn't do it different/
No show at friends parties and events/
Used to give it all to be present/
Now I treat em like engaged ladies barely miss/
Figure out is code for no/
Something that they never get/
Only find honesty when the beat hits/
Is what it is/
Don't know who to trust my feelings are so quick to change/
Still real when it all fades I just hate feeling the strain/
Reach to try and see the realities/
But even then I feel like I leave too many casualties/
Love people a day and then want them to go away/
I keep that shit inside it's just not easy to explain/
Stunted emotionally ever since I was four/
Wonder if I'll ever be able to fully mature/

Take me back/

When I was the youngin trying to stay in line/
And somehow not get left behind/
When I experienced things for the first time/
LiL IROC was my Bow Wow/
Mom said shits for the dogs threw it out/
Lecrae was banned from my house/
Snuck it anyway and kept getting found/
She was scared I'd end up how I end up now/
Couldn't keep friends my room too messy/
Couldn't keep mom's affection she'd misplace me/
Learn lessons from strange things/
Adjustments made cause of what pains bring/
When I open up I'm oft reminded why I keep it closed/
When people I've been there for ask I say no more/
Back with Maya we'd stay up till the sun/
First girl to show me another side of shit/
First time insecurities get it fucked/
Other girls online I cannot give it up/
Foolhardy mistake id make again in different ways/
When it happens to me I see just see Karma at play/
Parks closed but I'm starting to show my competitive shit/
Lose to dad I'd punt the ball when I only six/
He'd make me go get em alone
I'm afraid of darkness/
Those walks made me find peace in abyss/
There I realized there places no one comes with/
Realization I'm having to revisit/
Friends say that they'll come through/
Then they don't/
I can't feel a way at them/
Just at me for keeping hope/
Moments like this four year old me starts to show/
But know I can't give him the starring role/

Annakay Crossing days I didn't see this coming/
When I wanted the NBA like Joe Budden/
No love lost just had it redirected/
Pens for therapy not acceptance/
Only a few who really get it/
Rather keep to self then perspective sharing/
If you don't see it
You don't see it
Stop starring/
Lost Boy wading sees the crocs in creek/
But competition'd hang fore making it to hangman's tree/
Tinkering let me know when the shit rings a bell/
I'll be with Alice in Wonderland if ever fell/
Daniel tells me bout rappers I need to check
Don't he know those the people I'm tryna best
Scalp tickets watch me go for the head of
Whoever thinks that their shit is better
Rookie but LeBron Bryant work ethic
I'll be in this bitch forever
Like it when I talk introspective
Not when I get aggressive
Can't have everything
But I'll take everything I can
I'm not who I thought
But I'm still growing hope you understand
I'm the Bat and Peter Pan the boy is somehow still the man
It's chaos it's insane that's how I keep it all in hand
Head and heart synced
Bat flies higher than golden eagles can

They don't make them like me, yeah, yeah

Yeah

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