Dear Reverie

It's March 23rd and that means it’s been 5 days since I last gave into the addiction
It’s a problem that I face and I wish I could say that this was fiction, but conflict(ion)
I be facing, heart is racing, get impatient, so sick and tired of this slave shit popping all my profit
Seems impossible to stop it and can’t no feeling top it
Remember the last time? You swore it was “the last time”
Said that a few time last year. You’re gonna end up “flat line”
That spine is looking kinda slender. Don’t try to defend (her)
You’ve been sober for a while now, bitch, you must not remember
How much you complained, how much you restrained
How depressed, and stressed and vexed you became
You even started lying to your friends, covering up the habits with excuses
Built a fence, lost defense, lost yourself
Let the “X” take over. What’s next?
You gonna go back to “all-nighters?” Lose your job and respect?
You gotta be checked so I’m asking you to remember those days
When you couldn’t go to sleep and couldn’t get out of the maze
In a daze, in a depth, very dangerous to step
Back into the same predicament
Last time you were crying, saying you’re “sick of this”
Now you’re thinking of thizzing, shit
What the fuck is wrong with you? This shit does not belong in you
I even wrote this song for you, to help you to be strong
So fu just put the pills back in the baggy
I’m not asking, I’m demanding

You don’t really wanna do this. Just stop and think about it
Tomorrow you’re gonna be sorry
Don’t relapse, you’ll collapse and then ask how this cracked
Just let it pass
Don’t disappoint me like that
(Reverie) you don’t really wanna do this. Just stop and think about it
Tomorrow you’re gonna be sorry
Don’t relapse, you’ll collapse and then ask how this cracked
Just let it pass
Don’t disappoint me like that

It wasn’t a possibility. I didn’t wanna listen to you giving me
Those words ‘cuz they were so true
And now it’s too late, I’m looking down at you and I have this hate
Why the fuck didn’t I listen to you when you tried to warn me
Not to go back to the habits? I’ve seen it happen before me
But then for me to experience what I “only hear in stories”
So embarrassing that this is how it ended. No adoring
Anybody who loses their life to any kind of substance
Shaking their heads in disappointment and the chills come as they bump this
“I knew it was gonna happen” “I told her she needed help”
Now the kids that listened to me really know just how it felt
Too good to be true, ‘cuz look at where I’m currently sitting
In destiny’s waiting room. Don’t think I’ll ever be forgiven
Never living like you should be and by then it’s too late
To switch up all the deadly habits that are fucking with your fate
I demonstrate why you should hesitate
Said that I would never wait
Now this purgatory proved my glory hella fake
Celebrate your sobriety. Cuz temptation was blinding me
And now head to your local cemetery’s where you’re finding me
Sorry to disappoint all my friends, and fans and family
I didn’t think it was gonna happen to me, I can’t believe it had to be
So sad to see this talent put to waste
I had so many dreams and now I’ll never get to chase
After many and I had plenty. Pick up habits like they’re pennies
And the only think that gets you is a glass that’s half empty
So if I could tell you something, the last think that I would say
Is, “fuck the past, live for the present and prepare for future days”

You don’t really wanna do this. Just stop and think about it
Tomorrow you’re gonna be sorry
Don’t relapse, you’ll collapse and then ask how this cracked
Just let it pass
Don’t disappoint me like that
(Reverie) you don’t really wanna do this. Just stop and think about it
Tomorrow you’re gonna be sorry
Don’t relapse, you’ll collapse and then ask how this cracked
Just let it pass
Don’t disappoint me like that