Lessons

I take lessons from the past and I apply it, I'm open-minded but there's a limit this I can't deny it
Some type of firmness is required this I recognize careful to balance knowledge I allow inside
Testing everything like 1st Thessalonians 5 giving ears to my parents and my friends alike
And so I take a magnifying glass to mommas brain dissect her pain asking her how the six of us came
Devoting equal time to pops because it's fair sits in his chair as he's recounting his despair
Looking at the ceiling holding back the tearing wondering if all the years of so-called healing
He has not completed but all I can do is tap his shoulder tell him it's OK, thanking him verbally
For the human that he create, sometimes I'm mediocre but at least I can convey my feelings
With words that he encouraged I display. Playing me music, paying for music classes, I was
Drawn to hip-hop the beat was sweeter than molasses, friends playing N'sync pop was turning
Them to asses, admiring those blondies bunch of donkeys in my classes, that boombap beat
Allowing me to overpass them, growing funky even as I acquired glasses, I was nerdy but with
Swagger I was pizzazzing Jordans in my feet almost too cool wasn't advancing

I'm from HP 1.3 grade point average eventually graduated and went to college, as an adult now
Early crow feet but I'm not caring from the anxiety of my destiny not knowing the clock is ticking
My momma asking 'bout the milky white hair in between my black strands it's a rare occurrence
But it reminds me of the time and how its minimizing how I'm gonna die so I decide to ignite female's
Life through writing, I refuse to hold back anymore and inform about the power inside of us that we
Store, making mountains move, splitting seas part, call it so-called privilege or blaming my lady parts
But if I reject you and you have power then I'm through all because I reject the offer of dating you
All because I reject you showing me with loot and all because I told you 'let's keep this professional'