My Last Breath

Battery - My Last Breath

I was in a dark place, locked away, New Years ‘91
My heart as it beat echoed defeat, I was barely hanging on
I was in a haze, my body was drained of chemicals and drugs
As the door slammed behind me, part of me died, broken and unloved

You don’t need to understand me
I blamed myself when i was just a kid
For not being stronger, for not fitting in
You never saw what was in my heart
I have no memories of growing up, only of falling apart
Without you helping me to get through

The days where winter erased the strength that I had to wake up and face the world where I never had a place, a persistent vision was my only escape
Until Boston, Mass mid-nineties, Longfellow St back in DC
I saw the puzzle pieces differently, surrounded by friends who believed in me

You don’t need to understand me
I blamed myself when i was just a kid
For not being stronger, for not fitting in
You never saw what was in my heart
I have no memories of growing up, only of falling apart
Without you helping me to get through

I was one of three and I want so desperately
To raise my daughter differently, not scared and not lonely
So she can see my best and will learn from the rest
But the thought of it will haunt me until my last breath

I won’t fall apart, I won’t let her down
The hole in my heart is filled with her now