Safer

[Verse 1]
I know that I have issues
I face them, I swear
Think I overcome them
Then turn--- they're still there

Wish that I was different
I try to let go
But when I try to change
There's my past, saying no

Maybe it's all 'cause of dad
His new kids, his new wife
Or why not just blame mom
Who's been nuts my whole life

When you've felt so alone
Since the moment of birth
And you've struggled to find
Your own true sense of worth

When it seems there is no one
Across this whole Earth
To depend upon
You carry on
Just like you always do

[Chorus]
Cause it's safer
To rely on you
Oh, it's safer
To rely on you

[Verse 2]
Seen a million movies
All selling true love
Fantasies I'm not sure
That I'm worthy of

Caution to the wind
My heart's been on display
Still the end result
It's not gone my way

So when I date a new guy
Who's some deadbeat or jerk
At least I'm not so crushed
When it all doesn't work

When you once, unafraid
Wore your heart on your sleeve
And the ones that you loved
Chose to just turn and leave

Every day it gets harder
To somehow believe
You will survive
So you strive
Just to keep up your guard

[Chorus]
'Cause it's safer to hold every card
Oh, it's safer to hold every card

[Hook]
I feel out of control
I feel safe on the ground
I go building up walls
Yet I wish to be found

A true contradiction
To which I am bound
As I keep on spinning
Around and around

And I look at the people
Who've worked it all out
And I wonder why I'm still
A bundle of doubt and sometimes
I wanna just stand up and shout

[Chorus]
"Just commit and deal with it
Before your life flies by
Don't let your life fly by"

But is it safer?
Maybe it's safer
If I don't try