Far from Reality

I don't wanna go back home yet
I don't wanna cease this moment
It just doesn't sit right
Tell me I'm one in a million [?]

Can I make love show motion
Can I show up when I'm hurtin'
Something doesn't sit right
Tell me I'm living in the biggest rich lie

I don't really say a thing
Tryna' prove the little things
But I know how it goes
[?]

Bring your name up, I don't speak down
I know my truth and I don't blame loud
I don't say shit like you make shit
Twisted truth who I am shakens it
One, one, one, two
Saying that I left you without any clue
You know what my daddy said
"Is he really stupid or just not a man?"

Yeah, knocking on my door, calling up my phone
If you leave I'll end myself or drag out to the bone
Reactions to a problem, people see that you're the problem
That's why no one knows my hurts inside, I don't cry out to the public
People say I'm low energy, while they suck me up like I'm just some therapy
And when it's my turn, they just sit hurt acting fucking clueless or just sick hurt

I fucking hate that I still care for you
I know I sound not but I want the best for you
Fuck, I just wanna live, I, I just wanna live

I don't wanna go back home yet
I don't wanna cease this moment
It just doesn't sit right
Tell me I'm one in a million [?]

Can I make love show motion
Can I show up when I'm hurtin'
Something doesn't sit right
Tell me I'm living in the biggest rich lie