To Confront

To confront deep inside of me
Visions of being holy
If only time seemed real to me now
Than I could keep peace
Down
In my mind
For this is not true visions
But false
Patience of being clear
This mask is straight
From my soul
Solid gold
If you could see
What I am
Deep inside
Allow this person
To ware off
And see a different
Person
Growing in silence
But watching you
Excited to be alive and maybe

I seem alive
Confronting you
I am afraid
And maybe
I seem to be
Sane to you
I am, lying
I'm lying

Better hold
To the status
Given
Who am I
And looking for
Something write down
What you think of me
Profit
Or something else
Real
For a second time
I lost all my answers
To hope

Now this loss
Doesn't end
With out challenge
To feel
Better
End all these fronts
With in a window
Decision
Lost you feel alive
How can I stop this
From growing
And turn around
And maybe

I seem alive
Confronting you
I am afraid
And maybe
I seem to be
Sane to you
I am, lying
I'm lying