To Be Honest

[VERSE ONE]

Pain stricken, beyond living, my organs twisted

I miss you kissing, I miss you bitching, its fair to mention

Forever anxious for the sight of you at waking

Now im stuck in disbelief to know this thing for you is fading

Or better yet gone, I contemplate alone

Man up strong, Surviving dimensions of Love Jones

Loss of appetite, to see you out, I relapse

The weight of all this baggage, Shit I gotta find a SkyCap(Right this way sir)

And To tell her is detrimental, So I keep it simple

No need for getting all sentimental

This negative vibe, I swallowed with pride

No longer does it seem to burden me, im stepping outside

Yeah, What im feelin is ever real

I can't tell her, I can't tell her, don`t think she feels what I feel

So I keep concealed – Thoughts within memories, then I weap

Cuz only one of us remembers her other side and its me

[VERSE TWO]

We Dealt with issues, my issues, your issues evenly

Believing in progressively healing you wasn’t easy

Sometimes your closest ppl, them people would try to warn me

I said its ok, "the side I brought out of you wouldn’t harm me"

Despite it, denied it, and kept pushin

Still I felt you Pulling back and you thinking I wasn’t looking

I took your emotional ass whuppins

And Provided more support and still managed to pass flunking

Im up to something but positive was the outcome

Home was destination but you couldn’t see the breadcrumbs

I even went to seeds but still the ground was never fertile

Im damaging both knees from jumping over these hurtles

I deserved you but you couldn’t see it though I believed it

Because at the time you seemed equip with everything I needed

No matter what we did, We had it good regardless

But the way this ended I can only label it as Heartless

[VERSE THREE]

To be honest I promised to stick by you

But half the time, I was surprised I didn’t try you

Or even lie to you, I felt the temptation

Cuz despite my ever presence, I had other bitches waiting

So many options deciding to just drop them

Because in my mind compared to you the others couldn’t top you

Bound the bond that we shared

And just when I wanted to say Fuck it, something said she still cares

Friends connected too, nobody saw it coming

But somehow you knew it true and had it burning in ya stomach

From day to day I guess the feelings rearranged

And you peeped it first hand when my guard code changed

I laugh it off but at the time I felt death

Because I wake up next to pillows and a blanket to my left

I never thought that this would be a brief season

And til this day you failed to ever give a reason