Released on November 16, 2019, Disgrace was the first song of the album of the same title. The song was written, rapped, and produced by Josh A. Many people believe that the song samples Lonewolf by Convolk, which is technically true, that song actually samples NEEFEX’s Graveyard
[Chorus]
I'm a disgrace, I can't be saved
I try new things, but I can't change
I pray forgiveness for my ways
I wish that you would call me back
But you left me in the darkness
I won't be right by your side, I'm not fine
Left me in the darkness
I won't be right by your side, I'll be dead
[Verse 1]
Feeling fucked up, I cannot escape
Yeah I'm on the come up, might be something great
Yeah it's finally time for me to make statements
But, if I'm being honest, I hate this
Yeah I never wanna speak dishonestly
Yeah I never thought I'd see this side of me
But I've been getting wasted every night
Can't bare being alive
[Pre-Chorus]
I try so hard to numb the pain
You found yourself, I can't relate
I sabotage, burn everything
I don't want this no
[Chorus]
I'm a disgrace, I can't be saved
I try new things, but I can't change
I pray forgiveness for my ways
I wish that you would call me back
But you left me in the darkness
I won't be right by your side, I'm not fine
Left me in the darkness
I won't be right by your side, I'll be dead
[Verse 2]
Yeah let down the ones I depend on
I can't bare this I might end it all now
Suicide note for everyone that I sinned on
Let the water take me tonight
I try so hard just to please you
Sometimes I wish I could be you
Normal life, yeah I want it right back
And I, might make this my last time now
[Pre-Chorus]
I try so hard to numb the pain
You found yourself, I can't relate
I sabotage, burn everything
I don't want this no
[Chorus]
I'm a disgrace, I can't be saved
I try new things, but I can't change
I pray forgiveness for my ways
I wish that you would call me back
But you left me in the darkness
I won't be right by your side, I'm not fine
Left me in the darkness
I won't be right by your side, I'll be dead