Hit the Switch (Companion Version)

[Verse 1]
I'm staring out into that vacuum again
From the back porch of my mind
The only thing that's alive
I'm all there is
So I start attacking my vodka
Stab the ice with my straw
My eyes have turned red as stoplights
You seem ready to walk
We know I'll call you eventually, when I wanna talk
'Til then you're invisible

[Chorus]
'Cause there's this switch that gets hit
It all stops making sense
And in the middle of drinks
Maybe the fifth or the sixth
I'm completely alone at a table of friends
I feel nothing for them, I feel nothing, nothing

[Verse 2]
Well, I need a break from the city again
I think I'll ship myself out west
I got a friеnd there, she says
"Oh sugar, any timе"
Unless that offer's expired, I've been less than frequent
She's under no obligation to indulge every whim
And I'm so ungrateful, I take, she gives and forgives
I keep forgetting it

[Chorus]
And each morning she wakes
With a dream to describe
Something lovely that bloomed
In her beautiful mind
I say, "I'll trade you one
For two nightmares of mine
I got some where I die
I got lots where we all die"

[Instrumental Break]

[Verse 3]
I'm thinking of quitting drinking again
I know I said that a couple times
And I'm always changing my mind
Well, I guess I am
But there's this burning in my stomach
There's this pain in my side
And when I kneel at the toilet
And the morning's clean light
Pours in through the window
Sometimes I pray I don't die
I'm a goddamn hypocrite

[Chorus]
But the night rolls around
It all starts making sense
There's no right way or wrong way
You just have to live
So I do what I gotta do
And at least I exist
What would mean more than this?
What would mean more, mean more?

[Instrumental Outro]