Long Winter

I watch the world come into balance when reality splits
I'm often caught inside a place where only I can exist
And shift dimensions did I mention been inside of a trip
I left my ego in the ditch and said goodbye to the id
My eyes closed I hope medusa stay away from me
Tried to say it blatantly but lately I been focused on what people give and take from me
Truth that been escaping me
Lucid as I lay to sleep
Ducking cupids arrows till he went and pulled his blade on me
Truthfully I never could fall for any seducing see
Pain and retribution confusion it's all the same to me
Lost inside illusion consuming losing my patience seeking
Answers to questions but conclusions they never came to me
Used to get the runaround
Now they make a different sound
Knowing that the reason probably cause I took the limits down
This ain't a beginner now
You could say I been around
Closer than I ever been to posing with the winning crowd

It's kinda funny how it all works
The ones who build you up watch you take the fall first
Singing songs but you always sing the wrong words
And it’s all worse
When the leaves start to fall first
It’s been a long long winter
Told em that I’m back
And I’m not the same beginner
Watch the way they moving don’t presume and please consider
If you really could survive through the long long winter

I break bread with a certain few
You could quit the talking too much
That’s what the serpents do
Worth a second look I been searching to find a certain view
Urgently observing and learning cause we got work to do
I think I never found the peace of mind
Then again I never made effort to really seek or find
Anything of similar semblance should I be surprised
Either way I’m living and swimming inside a lake of lies
I know that fate wouldn’t be surprised if I said that everything happened the way I knew it might
I don’t have to prove it I do it I lose a piece of mind
Roaming round the world all the reason I never keep confined
Just know I’m coming for it all
Watched em walk away and now they never stop the calls
Made it through the spring into the summer and now the fall
Met the long long winter
Coldest season of them all