Convalescence

Stuck in a rut of complacency
And yet the boredom has caught up with me
You will always find me standing still
Eternally numb
Standing still in this place
In the arms of denial

The prodigal child
The indebted youth
Is this all that I am destined to be

I am never fine
I am always well
I am never well

I don’t deserve this
There is no merit
In this suffering
In this fucking existence

Now hear me out

I have felt the cold
Stuck in this state of convalescence
I have sensed a change
I can not go forward
Stuck in this state of convalescence

I don’t deserve this
I don’t merit any of this

I have felt the cold
I have heard the silence
There is nothing left

Oh hail, oh ave maria
I have become blind
Oh hail, oh ave maria
Can you see me now