My Version Of Closure

[Verse 1]

I ain't even like you, I just wanted to hit
All that other shit I told you, I ain't mean it I was was lying
Naw, If I said that, I'd be lying
I can take the route of acting like I don't care
Diss you act like I don't miss you
Then promote provoked fear
I won't go there, I'd rather tell the truth
And save myself the embarrassment of me showing my emote bare
Emotions, So instead I'll vent to the track
And take the listeners to a trip down my mind, grab some toll fare
What we had going I thought it was real
We established all the bases from the jump
Let out concerns that hindered us in the past and at first
You were a bit concealed
I had to prove to you that my touch, It's a different feel
If we ended it at first like you had wanted
None of this would've happened, you stopped momentum quickly sealed
But it was you who came back apologizing for not giving me more of a chance
And said that you would lift your shield
So how the fuck was I supposed to know you'd switch the field?
At first you told me you weren't ready for relationships
I said that's cool we both like each other be patient with
The whole process, I'm not expecting the elation quick
You were down with it, more than ecstatic with my patience
Said you can't believe you found a guy that was actually waitin'
Days turned to weeks, weeks turn to months
I thought it was gravy and everything was working 'cuz
She started telling me she really liked me and how pure the luck
It was to meet me but she was glad, she did she did burnin' up
Then she would tell me to not to worry cuz
Even though we weren't dating she wasn't looking for no one else
Events that happened after that can be labeled the term disgust
All of a sudden she started keeping it short with me
I didn't mind I fell back and asked if she needed space
She said "No" that she was going through some things
And all she really wanted at the time was to see my face
But I was three hours away and she was back at college
We had it established already on which would be the day
So that was cool, I thought we made it past an obstacle
It was normal again and then you called another audible
You being with another dude, I knew that it was possible
But thought you were mature, you telling me was most probable
But that wasn't the case, you said you need a break from me
In which I accepted, get as far as you can away from me
Two weeks go by, I'm calm, cool, and collective
If she had something major to say, she would've said it
Nope! The next morning I wake up and do the usual
Still in denial, I don't know why I was delusional
I ain't have shit to do planning to let the time fly
Hop on Facebook and what the fuck is on my timeline?
The bitch found a man and couldn't even tell me
I shoot her a text with it saying what the fuck had happened?
The fact you ain't let me know goes against what we established
You finding a man, it didn't hurt
That parts a minor speed bump that I can drive through
The part that hurts me is that fact that I was fucking lied to
I can't believe a word you said from when you met me
What happened to being patient, I thought you weren't ready?
The fact that you said that, it's making thoughts conflict them self
You fed me bullshit just to contradict yourself
And that's what hurts, nah it's not the actions taken
But the bitter taste of knowing you were in the act of fakin'
And everything within me wants to lash out at you
See you one more time so I can shout at you!
But I won't, my stupid ass is still hanging on this glimmer of hope (hope)
But it's done I can't worsen what's over
This was just my version of closure