Awful Things

These liquid thoughts evaporate
I can't remember anything
See I'm deranged, thoughts say the same
Stop wondering when life will end
Like where did all the time go?
How'd it get to this state?
Spending nights all fucked up
Just to wake with hate built up
Melting house of cards, falling crashing hard
Dealt it for myself
Stuck in a day dream made for you and me
We'll escape from this reality
Don't look back to see all those awful things
We'll make believe, lost in memories
Opportunities keep passing me
What is happening? Life keeps lapping me
Forget everything
Just let me relax till I relapse
Ticking hour glass full of all our ash, full of all our ash
Like where did all the time go?
How'd it get to this state?
Spending nights all fucked up
Just to wake with hate filled guts
Melting house of cards, falling crashing hard
Dealt it for myself
Like where did all my life go?
How'd it get to this place
Spending nights without you
Wish I could have kept you safe
Wish I could just see your face, one last time
Stuck in a day dream made for you and me
We'll escape from this reality
Don't look back to see all those awful things