Chasing_(DEMO) Remix

[Chorus: Mikayla Sippel & The Rubin]
I just wanna run away
Find somewhere that feels safe
Find somewhere the bad days
Don't come as often in this sad phase
Somewhere I can be loved
Where I don't have to run away from my flaws
And I don't have to be afraid of my thoughts
This high, this high that I've been chasing

[Verse 1: The Rubin & Mikayla Sippel]
I just wanna run away
From all of my sad phases
Put my hoodie over my face and
Away from all my bad days
Most of the time, I lock myself in my room
Deaths really starting to knock on my tomb
Sometimes I just wanna die
Sometimes I just wanna live
Walk around the block for some fresh air
Zoom into every part of my brain
It’s not healthy
I’m not bothered to strive
I’m the type to drive straight into the jealousy (bad person)
But I guess it’s only about you
Since I met you
You’ve been locked into my mind
How could I have been so blind?
Didn’t see you cheat but I guess I forgive you for all of the hurt
Ever since we broke up, you’ve been giving me the dirts, yeah...

[Chorus: Mikayla Sippel/NF & The Rubin]
I just wanna run away
Find somewhere that feels safe
Find somewhere the bad days
Don't come as often in this sad phase
Somewhere I can be loved
Where I don't have to run away from my flaws
And I don't have to be afraid of my thoughts
This high, this high that I've been chasing

[Verse 2: The Rubin & Mikayla Sippel]
I just wanna bottle up
All of my thoughts
I just wanna say goodbye
I just wanna die, oh
Grab the poison and fill up the cup
Please let me die
Looking below the sky
They say boys don’t cry
Am I not a boy then?
I got shot in my zen
Sometimes I just wanna leave this earth
Tryna hurt myself without my family knowing
Honestly, it’s hard to tell my worth (bad person, person)
When it’s hard to get out of bed
They try to say I’m easygoing
Only if they ever found out that my brain is overthrowing
All of these words
All of these thoughts
It’s really hard now

[Chorus: Mikayla Sippel]
I just wanna run away
Find somewhere that feels safe
Find somewhere the bad days
Don't come as often in this sad phase
Somewhere I can be loved
Where I don't have to run away from my flaws
And I don't have to be afraid of my thoughts
This high, this high that I've been chasing