Can’t Believe I Had You

[Spoken]
I'm finding it hard to live with myself-- this grief, and the mistakes I have made. I've been trying to find the words to say to you
But as the days come to an end, I-- I just sit and lay with my head in my hands. Staring out into a world where nothing stares back at me apart from a memory of you. You were my best friend, my savior, my soulmate. You were everything to me
I know that everything we once knew has changed and that you no longer see me as the person I once was; but, that person is still here. Thеre is a burden in being misundеrstood. A burden I carry with me every day. And I know it sounds over the top but, you were the only one who ever understood me
I can't believe I had you, and I hope that one day, you forgive me
I'll never, ever forget you