​tears on my paycheck

Yeah i see you called back
I can't even check that
Need a couple months back
I can't even cop that
Pull up then get pushed back
I can't even hate that
Tears up on my paycheck
I can't even blame that

Falling to the bottom of the things that i regret
Ignoring all my problems as they grow
Im feeling best with drugs up in my system
Cuz my man ive been depressed
Ive been hanging tight for as long as i remember

Crush a pill
Break it down
Wrap a bill
Walk around
With my crown
On my face
I dont smile
Only frown
Sad boy until i die
Kinda hope it ends tonight
Tryna find a better life
My hearts been broken a couple of times
My minds still stuck in a pit that she dug
I still smoke blunts
Roll em up, and i tuck
My team give way too much of a fuck
My girl dont really care enough
Said i take my life too seriously, but i dont feel the same
Thats the only way i know
I guess you think lifes just a game

Wish that i could grow some wings
Id spread them out and fly away
Picking pedals off of flowers
Lay them all across my grave
No one wants to talk about the shit that goes inside your brain
I fill mine up with contradictions
Try and smoke away the pain
Im so obsessed with bigger pictures
Can't just settle for the life i got
Thats what ive taught
Thats how i brought
These lessons ive forgot
Youd think id learn
But still i make the same mistakes
I guess thats whats so comfortable
So i won't even check my phone