As I Was

Why I feel this way after all I heard you say?
I see you walk away I should finally feel okay
I have nothing to gain if you came back still

I miss you so much

Never putting up again with what I don't deserve
Better on my own
Than with your selfish love
And I wanna know
You got me so down low
I turned a blind eye
Back then when I thought you loved me as I was

I've some kinda thought of the pain I've gone through
You care for me if I play by your own rules
You turned your back on me
Now it's forever you say
Never thought I would see this day
I tried my best but it wasn't enough
I hope one day you'll recall our good times
I split myself in two
Just to appeal to you
I just realized I have wasted my time

You say you didn't want it to end
Blaming me for how it did end
No common ground is all you say
You just want me to beg you to stay

How could you expect me to beg you to stay
When all you do is bring me down when I'm okay
I remember times when all was right
But you want me to forget it all

Never putting up again with what I don't deserve
Better on my own
Than with your selfish love
And I wanna know
You got me so down low
I turned a blind eye
Back then when I thought you loved me as I was