Lonely

Here I am empty handed
No one fucking cared as if I ever imagined
Take a knife, that’s too mainstream
Tie a noose, no one can hear me scream
So much for those hotlines
The phone reception started to bleed
I write a letter and I send it to the paparazzi
Ever wondered if the pain would stop or form a wall around me
Lock my mental illnesses away up in our space I’m happy
No more creeping up behind me
Constant staining of my countless disasters
Unstable terrain and a bucket of plasters
Covered up my evidence before I committed
It’s time to say goodbye I’ll see you motherfuckers after

Take me out put a fucking bullet through my head
My will to live expired prising open up my bed
A metaphor I meant it’s for my coffin my mistake
An exhibition of me dead who’s body’s always never awake
Could never afford our bills
So what’s the tombstone gonna take?
The day has come to intake your goodbyes
An ocean made from the tears in your eyes
Everybody start to blame all as they fight
A moment of silence is needed for my flight
Lemme name the people, the ones who keep me stable
The reasons for living and not walking away unable

Momma, Daddy, Brother, sister, holy fuck I’m gonna miss yas
Aunty, Granny, Granda, Uncle
I’m sorry for being a fuck up
Friends and cousins all above
A jigsaw not complete enough
I’m out of here I leave my peers
Enjoy your life remains without my muscles, got me through all my Troubles
In the name of the father, the son, the Holy Spirit
I hope you learned a lesson, I bet you gonna miss me