Not What I Wanted

Just help yourself, I’m lying here
It’s not the time to disappear
It still could get worse, but anyway
I’ll take the pills you offer me

I see myself on padded feet
Just take the steps that surely lead me
To place where I can fade out
All the noise that people make

Just leave me
Just leave me out
Don’t touch me
Just leave me out

What did you say?
Where have you gone?
Where are you now?
I want some fun!

Let’s just go out
And bother some strangers
Who can get mad so easily

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This is not what I wanted
My God, what have we become?
Why haven’t we started?
It’s the play I’ve learnt from my heart
Well, this is a nightmare, but it’s my life
This is not what I wanted
You’re right but could you stop dramatizing what I said?
Got your point but hey, I’m alright
Well, this is a nightmare, but it’s my life

Still got some pride that’s left in me
I know you think I cannot see
You keep myself away from me
At least you try, occasionally

But after all I’m just okay
With everything still in my way
I just don’t care enough today
Yet, I don’t care, I don’t care, I don’t care...

[Chorus]

This is not what I wanted
It's not what I wanted
This is not what I wanted
This is a nightmare, but it’s my life

This is not what I wanted
It's not what I wanted
This is not what I wanted
This is a nightmare, but it’s my life

[Chorus]

It's not what I wanted
Not what I wanted
It's not what I wanted
This is a nightmare, but it’s my life
It's not what I wanted
Not what I wanted
It's not what I wanted
This is a nightmare, but it’s my life