I feel like I will never be free

Stay in bed
Sometimes crying at night
Before I close my eyes

This is not a song about sleep or death
It's about something much smaller and paler than that
Not gonna show it to them
Cause when I was home i lost 30 something pounds and
Didn’t leave my bed
I threw up in a bathroom, in Sanger
Before dancing with a guy
I thought I'd never talk to again
Now we're talking
And I won’t be nice to anyone
Because I don't see why I should
I don't see the point
I won't, I won't be free
For the rest of my life
I won't be nice