a heart you didn’t break

My heart is hurt again
And I don't know what to say
Cause You know I ain't prayed in days
But all the crying ain't working
Tears all on my pillow case
Don't seem to fix anything
Lord would You come again, but

First I'm so sorry
I don't mean to be so distant
But I be
Fighting back trauma from someone that hurt me
And I know it's not Your fault
And my mind knows You love me
But for some reason
My heart is so stubborn
I built these walls
Now they're causing destruction
Cause all that they do
Is keep me away from You

But You've been way too good
And You lead me through
All of my mountains
And my valleys too
Even though You didn't hurt me that day
God would You come heal my heart anyway
Cause I wanna know what it's like to be loved
And to believe it even at my worst
I know it's not You that's causing me pain
But God would You heal a heart you didn't break

I know You told me not to fall in love with him
And I know now I probably should have listened
But You know how hard it is not to love
The people we shouldn't just look at us
And You called it
Yeah, he broke my heart now I'm
Feeling guarded
Even in our quiet time
I wish I didn't have to say it
But for his mistakes You're the one paying

I'm so sorry
I don't mean to be so distant
But I be
Fighting back trauma from someone that hurt me
And I know it's not Your fault
And my mind knows You love me
But for some reason
My heart is so stubborn
I built these walls
Now they're causing destruction
Cause all that they do
Is keep me away from

This is my cry out to the Lord, like
I want to believe that you love me
I'm gonna cry
I've had such a horrible day today
And, like, I don't know
It's just been a really hard season
And I'm trying so hard to just, like
Believe that God loves me
I know that He does, but it's just been so tough
And I know where it stems from and it frustrates me cause there's nothing I can do about, like
What I've gone through
And so it's really, like
This song genuinely is
My truest prayer